Panic Attack!!

Tadik aku tgk lah kalendar, nak tgk bila free nak hantar abah balik Perak..then i realized i've finished almost 3 WEEKS of my study leave, WITHOUT even studying!!! huuwwwwwaaaaaaa....why oh why..mana pergi semua cuti ku...i remember balik Kampung japs on the first few days..pindah umah from Puchong ke Damansara, attending my ACCA revision klas (esok last!) and in between dating ngan tunang, kluar bersama rakan2, makan, tido and toilet breaks...tup tup dah 3 minggu...hhuuuwwaaaa....adakah aku sebenarnye dah kena abducted ngan alien?? sampai tak sedar 3 minggu dah berlalu??? STRESS pulak...
Esok klas sampai petang..Rabu and Khamis nak balik Perak skejap..then after that i have about 4 to 5 days (including weekends yg sgt tipis peluangnye untuk digunakan untuk study...huhuhuhuh)..to study for 3.1 subject (exam on the 5hb Dec)..and after that ader about another (4-5 days untuk study 3 core subject!!) = SHIT! Im in a big trouble...3.6 macam a gone case jek..mengalah sebelom kalah...huhuhuh...stupid consol..bile lah ACCA nak wat open book jek...in real life bukan kena hafal semua mende pon kan...dalam kepala hotak penuh framework 3.5 bercampo aduk...byk gile lagik tak hafal since aku kedukut nak bayar advance for tuition fees...huhuhuh...study plak malas...huhuhuhu...3.7 plak macam half half..byk sgt rate...tah reti tah tak nak pilih rate mana masa exam nanti...to tell you the truth..if i can pass at least 2 out of the 4 papers pon dah kira OK!!...tapi malas nye kalau fail kena repeat bulan 6..busy nak wat preparation agik time tuh...tapi Dec dah tukar syllibus baru..demmit...
Adoiiii...sakit lah buntut duduk umah ayong nih..its mostly EMPTY..we've officially moved..this month gile ah..maintain 2 buah umah sewa at least for the last half month..New home is very comfortable...i very the like..but still a lot to kemas..
Tadik ade klas tak sempat pon attend Nita kawen..anyway,
CONGRATULATIONS to :
1) Nita & Apan...
2) Nadzri & Alfieya
Selamat Pengantin Baru...Selamat Berbahagia Selamanye...

Di mana dia file merah saya?

Tadik baru abes tgk Fahrin Ahmad kat tv..hensemmmmmmmm siyut...pakai baju pink pon nampak tampan bergaya walau sedikit gay (in my opinion..pink is just not meant for guys)..cair siyut setiap kali tgk Fahrin senyum kat tv..hehehe..marah tunang i nanti...jgn jeles sayang..Fahrin pon takmo kat i..dia dah ader Linda Onn...huhuhuhuhu...JELESSSSSSSSSS....
Then aku hampir muntah balik dinner Nando's aku tadik dgr phone conversation gedik ngade ngade Jehan ngan awek dia kat tv...huhuhhuuh...maybe aku jeles kot..nehhh..i dun think so...plain disgusted je tuh..but they are sporting la nevertheless..but still menggelikan...aku plak yg blushing dgr diaorng bercakap...its normal for couples..but quite abnormal on TV..even Tom Cruise pon tak cakap camtuh kat Oprah Winfrey Show tau...
Neway..dah 5 hari dot pindah umah kat Damansara Emas..bilik pon dah abes kemas..tapi stress sampai otak when i discover the most important folder ku hilang..sijil PMR, SPM, sijil berhenti skolah, every sijil for every courses i attended, semua ader dalam tuh..its missing in action...tatau lah pi mana..aku pon dah give up dah nak carik..tinggallah degree aku jek nak di jaja bila aku nak tukar keja nanti nanti..seb baik dah ade experience...imagine if nak mintak kerja first time, and semua sijil takde..night mare..
My new room is "mine"..i love it..but ayong's room is MASSIVE and so cantik cause dia ader full bedroom set..jeles btol..
i've already finish 2 weeks of my study leave..and STILL havent study a single thing..i am so dead maN..seb baik ader revision classes..kalau tak langsung la tak pegang buku...saiko siyut aku nih..dah lah ader 4 paper nih...tapi byk sgt mende nak di selesaikan..balik kampung la..pindah umah la..nanti nak balik kampung balik...heheheh...at the moment my dad is here with us..and im happy he's here..sian gak kat dia dok sensorang kat Perak tuh...tapi dia takmo dok KL forever, cause dia sayang umah kat Perak tuh..
Hari nih klas kat MIM dr pagi sampai petang..Lecturer mat salleh aku asyik mengutuk Malaysia jek..klakar plak aku dgr..abes lah P**ton and M*S kena kutuk..klakar klakar..but most/all of what he said make sense...
Opah hehari nagis jugak..tatau la aku nak pujuk canne dah..ajak dok KL takmo..hope she'll get stronger soon..memang lah sedih kalau teringat..and selalu pon teringat jugak..just takleh nak ikot perasaan jek la..but she's older and thus more fragile i think...
Malas nye nak study..lepas tgk DSH3 and Prison Break 2 and Greys Anatomy 3 lah aku study malam nih..ader homework tadik pon tak wat lagik...esok pon klas..lusa pon klas..demmit..habis weekend aku...huhuhuh...
mana lah pegi fail sijil aku tuh..sedihh siyut..okla..dah malas nak menaip..sakit bontot dok atas lantai kat umah lama ayong nih..soon to be empty gak this weekend..
Hari tuh pindah umah penat siyuttt...seb baik ader darling Leman i tulong..ader lah tak kurang dpd 10 - 15 round naik turun tangga tingkat 5...patah kaki...tuh pon ader movers tolong..
To all my rakan rakan seperjuangan ACCA..Good luck and All the best...
To Jue and Ija, i'll miss you both dearly..at least Jue's gonna be "sekampung"..senang sket nak catch and bergossip...hehehhe...

GOODbye PUSAT bandar PUCHONG

Ngantokkk.... Masih belom study... Masih malas macam slalu..
lagik 3 hari nak exam baru menggelabah nanti..huhuuh...
Currently, i am on my 5 WEEKS of study leave...
Jeles tak?? jeles tak?? i retracted the first day of leave to WORK (darn!)
Friday was used for my revision class @ McOrange..bosan nak mampos...
Saturday and Sunday is supposed to be another revision classes...decided to waste whatever tuition fees i've paid and just ponteng..
Monday drive back to Perak..lepak kampung sampai today..rush back to KL..
paid the money to my landlord..and got the keys to my new rented home...YEAYYY...
@ Damansara Emas..a 2 storey house..i very the like,..tapi nak beli tak mampu lah plak...
bila la nak kaya nih...huhuhuh...
Neway..selamat tinggal PUSAT BANDAR PUCHONG...I've have a great 2 and half years...
this weekend..and the rest of the next week..will be used for revision classes again..boring...
Cant help thinking of my late mom...before this im thinking to utilised at least 1 week of my study leave to take care of her...but manusia merancang, tuhan menentukan...tak sempat pon nak tunggu study leave..she's gone...but at least i've pull forward 1 week of my supposedly 6 weeks of study leave earlier, to care for her...cuma menyesal sebab rasa cam tak cukup..and tak puas..if only i knew how soon im losing her...i would change lots of things...sighhhhhhhhhhhhh..again...manusia hanya merancang,...tuhan yg menentukan...
Wish me luck for my exam..and for my new home...
I've also decided on my wedding date..but still far to come..*wink..*wink..will only annouce later...sadddddddddd...cause my late mom tak de dah...sighhhh again...needed to be stronger for my dad and my grandma...
Still ngantok..esok esok jek lah aku mula blajo...huhuhuh...
Good nite..

MY MOTHER in LOVING MEMORY (19 September 1954 – 18 October 2006)

Big sigghhhhhh...sudah menjadi lumrah alam…yg hidup akan mati..bila tiba masa nya semua orang akan pergi bertemu dgn penciptanya…but the memories will always remain with those whose still queing… Im writing this blog in the memory of my beloved mom…
She was borned to a single mother (my now very grieving grandma!)…Her dad passed away even before she was born (still dlm kandungan)…but she was raised with all the love my grandma could give (my grandma never remarries after the age of 21)…
23 year later…She (mom) was engaged and soon later was married to a man she never knew before (at least before the engagement)… dulu dulu mana boleh deting deting…it was an arranged marriage..but I would say a PERFECT one...one day my father’s aunt was passing by my grandma’s + mom’s house, and stop by (through recommendation..heheh) to see my mother for herself…but once my grandma + some older relatives knew the true intention (the aunt wanting to see my mom to be a potential wife for her nephew)…my mom was forbidden to come out + just stay in her room…Nevertheless, since the recommendation came from her (the aunt’s) fren…[before that, the said fren also come to my grandma’s house..but to see my grandma..but my grandma was not in..so my mom buat lah air teh … à punya lah kuat penangan air teh mak aku..heheh]….They were married on the
1 May 1977…
One year later, they had their first child (my Sister). At that time they were station at
Sarawak(my dada was a navy officer..so they move house quite a lot)…then another year later, they had a baby boy (my bro)…who was born kat umah opah aku kat Perak (masa nih bapak aku gi
Englandbeberapa bulan)…then selang 2 tahun kemudian..aku yg kiyut nih plak dilahirkan ke dunia..kat hospital Sultanah Aminah kat Johor Bharu…Abang aku sorang jek beranak kat rumah/bidan..maybe sebab tuh hidung dia lagik cantik dpd hidung aku atau ayong…
Sebab kakak ngan abang aku asek “melekat”…bergado/bertinju/sumo/dll….opah aku decide dia tolong jaga aku…sampai la umur aku 4 tahun…nenek aku hantar lah aku kat Australia…Family aku yg lain memang ader kat sana dah time tu sebab abah aku keja kat sana plak…
Then lepas balik Malaysia tahun 1987, teruslah menetap kat Ayer Tawar, Perak sampai lah sekarang…bapak aku keja kat Naval base @ Lumut…mak aku memang dari dulu memang wife + mother + housewife full time…aku ingat lagi..dia slalu cakap…”orang keja ofis pon cuti sabtu/ahad”..so our family always eats out on weekends…aku ngan adik beradik aku memang suka makan kat luar..free plak tuh (dulu tak keja agik mana nak ader duit
kan…tapi skrg dah keja pon tak cukup duit jugak…huhuhuh…)…
We were always happy…every year (sebab navy officer byk cuti…setahun tatau lah berapa hari..tapi CONFIRMlah lebih dpd cuti yg PwC bagi kat aku sekarang) mesti akan pergi holiday…habis dah semua state kat
Malaysianih kitaorg pegi…
Medan
Indonesiapon sempat pergi jugak…lepas kitaorg dah keja nih..
Baliand
Hong Kongpon sempat pergi jugak..Cuma sedih
Jakartadia tak sempat pergi walaupon dah bayar semua booking masa bulan 5 harituh…sedihhh sgt…nasib baik dia mmg dah pernah ke
Jakartangan her frens sebelum nih…takde lah terkilan sgt…
Then Kakak aku masuk asrama…next year tuh abang aku plak…so tinggal lah aku sorang2 kat umah…bak kata bapak aku “at least mak aku ader lah kawan bergadoh”…heheheh…aku nih dulu kecik2 degil skit…notty pon ader sket…mak aku memang GARANG masa aku kecik2 dulu…darjah satu aku dah kena ugut..“kalau tak dapat nombo dalam kelas, nanti kena kawin”…punya lah aku takot nak kena kawen darjah satu…hehehe..so yours truly nih tak pernah lah tak dpt nombo dlm klas…mesti top 5 punya tetiap tahun….heheheh…tapi tuh sekolah rendah lah sampai darjah 6…lepas tuh takde top 5…tapi still ler ader nombo jugak…education wise, my mom never complaints…even masa moi dapat 3A1B [karangan B] jek dalam UPSR…huhuhuhuh…maso tuh eden raso hancur doh maso dopan den…terus takleh masok asrama…tapi aku rasa parents aku pon happy sebab aku stay kat umah…[ayat nak sedapkan hati sendiri…huhuhu]…
So continue ler bergadoh ngan mak aku…tetiap pagi dia kejutkan aku…dia suka pulas jari kaki aku…after a few times…kaki aku dah automatic tarik naik atas dekat dagu setiap kali dia bukak connecting door bilik aku ngan bilik dia...hehehe)…dulu aku slalu kena rotan…dan aku slalu nyurukkan rotan yg dia beli…tempat paling faveret nak nyurukkan rotan was campak atas almari baju…heheheh…kalau naik beskal tak reti nak balik mandi sebelom pukul 7petang…alamat kena kurung ler kat luar sampai bapak aku balik…kebetulan satu hari tuh masa aku tingkatan 2 kot..aku TERbalik umah lambat sket..bapak aku plak hari tuh balik lambat…aku duduk ler kat luar…skali dah kul 745 pon bapak aku tak balik agik…dah gelap dah kat luar nih…aku pon dok bunyikkan door bell berulang ulang kali…then dgr lock pintu terbukak…aku pon sambil sengih sengih ayu masok ler umah…then kena la belasah ngan mak aku sebab dok asek bunyikkan door bell kacau dia tgh semayang…huhuhuhuh…abes jek kena blasah..2 minit kemudian…dgr lah bunyi keta bapak aku balik….CISS…wrong timing betullah bapak aku nih..lambat 2 minit jek..sesia kena pukul free…huhuhu..(dulu takde handphone macam budak budak sekarang)…then dia suruh aku yg tgh menangis teresak2 nih naik atas…mak aku mmg camtuh…masalah2 anak2 yg kalau small matter…dia tanak susahkan kepala bapak aku…and dia tanak bapak aku yg penat baru balik keja tuh masuk masuk pintu jek trus dgr suara merdu aku tgh menangis…hukhuk…
Mak aku slalu sambut bapak aku balik kerja…ambikkan brief case bapak aku and jamukan air…kengkadang siap main nyuruk2 blakang pintu lagik…bapak aku dari dulu sampai lah dia pencen 2 tahun lepas…kalau muka kiyut aku yg sambut dia dulu..1st word yg kluar dari mulut dia is “MAK MANA??”…camtuh lah life kitaorg..aku lagik manja ngan bapak aku dulu (sekarang pon sama jek..heheh)…tapi lepas aku masuk asrama masa tingkatan 4…mak aku dah tak garang dah…mak slalu cakap “ kalau mak tak garang dulu mesti korang tak jadik ORANG ler sekarang” ..heheheh…sebelom aku masok asrama dulu aku slalu pikir nak lari dpd umah..tapi duit takde..paling jauh bley pegi pon naik bas balik umah nenek aku jek…hehhehe…aku ingat lagik masa tadika dulu..aku slalu tinggalkan suicide note or nak larik umah note kat tempat tempat yg aku sure mak aku leh jumpa nanti…hehehhe…
Lagik satu insiden aku ingat sampai skrg..masa darjah 4…satu hari tuh aku curi curi tak puasa (itu ler sekali dalam seumur hidup aku nih…serius tak tipu..huhuhu)…aku teringin buah kurma yg aku tau berada dlm peti ais…hehehe…nak makan? Tanak? Nak makan? Tanak? Last last “nak makan” MENANG…ishk..tak kuat iman betullah aku nih...aku pon amiklah 6 bijik...masoklah bilik air tingkat bawah makan...uishh..sodap siyut...hehehhe...lepas mission accomplished..aku pon teruskan lah lakonan aku seperti aku still berpuasa...mak aku buat tak reti jek...then lepas berbuka...abang ngan kakak aku naik semayang..mak aku suruh aku tunggu dulu kat dapur...then dia tanye...”kamu puasa tak hari nih”??aku dgn muka kiyut penuh innocentnya jawap “Puasa”!!...Then mak aku ajak aku ikot dia masok bilik air...then tunjuk bijik kurma 6 bijik kat tapak tgn dia...huhuhuhuh...KANTOI....cammaner lah aku leh terlupa nak buang bijik2 kurma tuh tadik...hard evidence tuh...stoopid...stoopid...then benda pertama yg mak aku leh capai dalam bilik air tuh is getah paip...merasa ler kaki yg aku yg gebu and montok2 nih kena besit..dah ler tak puasa...MENIPU plak tuh...marah betul mak aku time tuh...hik hik...i’ve learn my lifetime lesson that day à Kalau nak menipu jangan kantoi...hahaha..kidding...serius lepas tuh menjadi seorang insan yg tak pernah ponteng puasa..(kecuali pada masa2 yg diharamkan berpuasa)...
Masa aku dah masok asrama...mak aku dah tak garang dah..dulu mase aku dok umah hari tuh...aku rasa busan jek makan nasik kat umah..takde ayam daging tak sedap makan..lepas masuk asrama + universiti + kerja...aku asek rindu jek masakan mak aku....mak memang pandai masak....cakap jek nak makan ape...semua dia masakkan...menjahit baju tak pandai...menggubah bunga pon tak pandai...tapi memasak and mengemas memang nombo satu....nih mak aku dah takde nih...sedihhhhhhhh sgt aku rasa tak dapat dah nak makan air tangan mak aku...break nangis kejap lah...nanti aku sambung balik...aku intend nak tulis semua yg aku leh ingat pasal mak aku...takut nanti bakal anak2 aku tanye nenek dia camne..aku lupa dah nak cerita...
PART II
Hello again...dot pon nak sambung lah bercerita sampai bateri lap top abes and tido...
KanI’ve mentioned my mother was very the very garang
kan…so masa form 5…ader satu cikgu nih (Penolong kanan), cikgu normah nama dia…memang menyampah betul tgk muka moi…tah aper lah masalah dia ngan moi yg kiyut nih…anyway..terkantoi lah plak moi couple ngan satu budak form 4 nih…actually tuh dah tinggal sejarah tak mungkin berulang…sebab masa that time moi dah bahagia dah dengan Leman..hik hik…tapi dia cam marah marah asek perli perli dot ngan org lain…and once dia dapat tau plak moi couple ngan Leman..makin teruk lah aku kena jeling ngan perli…ironically, aku jek yg kena marah2..kalau dia Nampak Leman, senyum panjang sampai telinga…menyampah betol…dulu masa skolah moi slalu berazam…akan ku hantar kad jemputan kahwen ku dgn leman pada dia one day..ahaks…baru tingkatan 5 dah gatai nak kawen…neway…sebab masa tuh kecoh cikgu tuh ader list nama2 yg bercinta kat skolah (skolah asrama mane ler cintan cintun nih…macam forbidden love gitu..hiks)…and ade khabar angin cikgu nih nak call parent..moi dah panic dah…hahahah…so satu malam tuh..moi pon angkat lah gagang merah public phone telekom tepi koridor nak gi surau kat aspuri tuh…moi pon tepong lah umah…moi pon confess lah semua kat my mother…pasal ex boifren…pasal Leman…SURPRISINGLY…mak mother tak marah langsung…dia Cuma cakap “mak antar gi skolah suruh belajar lah..yg kamu tuh gatal2 nak bercinta2 kenapa??” heheheheh…anyway..dia concern bila moi cite pasal cikgu tuh,…and just cakap kalau cikgu tu over2..nanti cakap ngan dia..dia tolong setelkan..bahagia btol rasa time tuh…heheheh…so lepas lepas tuh…suka hati kau lah cikgu normah…yg penting aku dah confess kat mak aku…it turned out that all the rumour tak betul pon..takde pon nak kena sanding kat assembly..takdek pon hantar
suratkat mak bapak…hehehe…tapi me dah terkantoi plak terconfess awal2...
Anyway..lepas2 tuh..tetiap kali cuti..leman mmg slalu akan call umah…dah jadik trend kalau mak aku yg angkat tepon…dia mesti nak tanye sape yg tepon…tak suka betul dia kalau my frens jawap “nih kawan dia”…hehehe…sometimes she’ll just jokingly answered back “mak cik tau la kawan dia..takkan laki nya pulak…nama siapa??” hehehe…cause my mom said.. “kalau dia menipu pon mak bukan nye tau nama dia sapa..” back to the story..satu hari tuh leman called..and my mom angkat (first time lah nih)..and bila dia tanye..leman dgn jujur nya jawap “Leman” or “Sulaiman” (it doesn’t matter
kan..dedua pon tak glamer…hehehe..sorry sayang)….moi dah sengih2 malu2 tunggu tepon kat sbelah my mother…then my mother said.. “dia kata nama dia Leman…ishk tak percaya aku..nih mesti menipu nih”….hahahahaha….sian darling i…cakap betul2 pon mak ingat tipu…tapi tuh first time lah…after that she was Leman’s number one supporter…
I still remember the first time I intro leman to my parents…my parents escort kitaorg ramai ramai pergi bercuti kat pangkor…dalam garang2 dia tuh…a lot of instances yg moi pon tak sangka dial eh se-sporting itu…take BALI trip for instances…we had a very2 wonderful time that time…remember tak I blog earlier…masa dia kejut aku bgn tido…ganas ganas jek (still tektik tarik jari kaki..huhuhu)…then bila nak kejutkan leman yg tido ngan my dad kat bilik sbelah…lemah lembut jek panggil… “Sulaimannnn…bangun…”…cis..pilih kasih betul…hehehe….
Bila dah masuk Universiti…aku ngan mak aku makin rapat…yours truly nih
kansuka bercakap tak henti henti…hehehhee….so my mom tuh nak tak nak kena lah jugak dengar aku nih membebel bebel…takkan nak sumbat telinga ngan tisu plak
kan…
Mak memang suka shopping and traveling…so bila me and my siblings are station at KL..lagik senang lah dia slalu nak travel sinih bila nak jumpa anak2 dia…book je hotel anywhere in KL and all her 3 kids will be there…tambah time time sale tuh…syok betul…time aku belom keja lagik syok sebab aku tak yah bayar apepe pakai duit sendiri..sebab takde pon duit sendiri…hehehe…semua pon scholarship FAMA…
Then masa dah kerja and everything…even though aku ngan leman dah bercinta lebih 7 tahun…dia skali pon tak pernah mendesak or tanye bila kitaorg nak kawen...Cuma aku tau dia mmg nak sgt buat kenduri kawen untuk mana2 anak dia…so last year masa aku bertunang..she was very very happy…aiseyman..aku dah sedih balik…one of the major reason aku terkilan mak dah takde..is that dia tak sempat pon tengok aku kawen ngan leman…dia lah orang yg nak sgt rasa ader menantu…and she will next year if umur dia panjang..but dah takdir tuhan..takde sapa mampu mengubahnya…lagik hancur luluh rasa hati aku setiap kali one of my relative cakap something macam “dia tak sempat pon tgk ina kawen”…huhuhhuhuh….nangis lagik…ishk…penat dah aku nih menangis…sedih suit…
Since tgh sedih nih..aku nak cerita jek lah part sedih…mak aku start sakit bulan 4 this year…right after aku balik bercuti from Redang hari tuh…aku balik hari Ahad…hari rabu tuh bapak aku call..cakap mak aku baru lepas major surgery..kat Hospital ALor Setar…aku menangis dalam bilik audit tuh jugak…dah tak dapat control dah..nasib baik mase tuh aku kerja dengan kawan aku Ihsan 2 org jek…kalau tak mau kecoh di buat nya…bayang kan…nasib baik dgn izin Allah there was no complication during the surgery… and dipanjang kan umur mak aku untuk survive the surgery…cuba bapak aku call terus cakap mak aku dah takde time tuh..mau sewel aku kejap…sebab langsung takde warning apepe…so kitaorg adik beradik terus lah amik Emergency leave gi tgk dia kat Kedah…sedih sgt time tuh…mak and bapak aku seboleh boleh nya tanak menyusahkan sesape..termasok lah anak anak diaorang nih sendiri…tapi nasib baik lah bapak aku bagitau right after the surgery..masa kitaorg sampai …dapat lah tulung mak aku yg baru lepas surgery tuh…sebab kat wad pompuan..bapak aku takleh tido kat situ tunggu dia…merasa lah aku ngan kakak aku tido hospital 2 malam…but that was just the first beginning…subsequent to that..lepas mak aku dah didiagnosis
kandengan that terminal illness…hospital was like a second home or more like a first to her…badan dia initially berisi and tembam…right to the day dia pergi kelmarin..tinggal rangka saja…perut je besar sebab dia sakit…badan kurus cam org Somalia…sedihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sgt setiap kali balik melawat dia…makin lama dia dah makin kurus,….dia dah tak lalu makan since beberapa bulan dah…nak pujuk dia makan sikit pon..kadang2 terpaksa nak bergado2 ngan dia…
Month after months condition dia worsen instead of getting better…even tho I AM TOTALLY AT LOST AND IN GRIEVE…the less selfish part of me is very thankful to Allah to ends her suffering…bukan nye sekejap dia suffer…kena cucuk jarum berkati kati…kluar masok hospital sebulan 2-3 kali (from April till October)….sekali pon dia tak pernah complaint…dia relakan je nurse cucuk tgn dia…dia pon jenis susah nak carik urat..sometimes doctor kena cucuk 7-8 kali baru jumpa line yg betul…yg lain lain tuh macam kena cucuk free jek…lebam and bengkak2 tangan dia selalu…tak pernah pon surut..sampai lah dia meninggal…sebab baru jek nak baik…cucuk lagik…dan lagi dan lagi…
Okla..dah blur dah nih tak Nampak screen…to be continue and ended tomorrow…nite…
PART III
Terkilan jugak tak sempat balik right before mak hembuskan nafas yg terakhir...nasib baik sbelom tuh aku ade cuti seminggu balik jaga dia...kalau tak, plan nak tunggu study leave aku lepas raya baru nak balik kampung lama...nasib baik lah masa bulan 8 tuh aku amik cuti study leave seminggu bawak ke depan...sepanjang dia sakit tuh kerap jugak kitaorg balik...Cuma aku menyesal sebab lately (especially after start puasa) aku tak dapat nak balik slalu sebab asek ader weekend klas most of the weeks...tapi 2 hari sbelom mak meninggal tuh,...sempat lagik aku + adik beradik aku gi lawat dia kat sepital...kitaorg sama2 tido hospital hari ahad – isnin tuh...isnin lepas berbuka puasa baru balik KL balik...
Dah janji dah ngan mak kitaorg akan balik beraya hari sabtu tuh...dia pon dah cakap dah dia nak pakai baju raya yg warna ape..sedihhhh sgt kalau ingat ingat kan...selasa tuh aku dah gerak ke Seremban...then tido sana...rabu tuh still kat seremban...petang tuh kakak aku call cakap abah mintak kalau bulih balik....dia cakap condition mak dah makin teruk...so aku pon dah lah amik EL 2 hari...and tgh lah wrap up work apepe yg patut sebab ader collegue lain nak kena take over..and nanti cuti lama...skali tgh aku kelam kabut tuh...dapat call from abah..aku dah rasa tak sedap hati dah...then betullah abah inform mak dah tak ade...luruh rasa hati aku time tuh...terus break down time tuh jugak...terus transfer jek satu folder ke laptop collegue aku..and then trus pack up balik KL...
From Seremban ke Puchong aku drive setengah jam ajer...tekan minyak 150 – 160 km/h ...seb baik tak kena tahan ngan polis...in between menangis and answering lots of phone call...i arrived in one piece at my home in Puchong..lepas pack up and tukar baju...aku trus lah nak gi umah kakak/abang kat Kota Damansara...skali kuar jek lepas toll Puchong tuh..LDP pack gile..tak bergerak langsung...so aku ingat nak ikot lah NPE...skali simpang NPE dekat sunway tuh tutupp plak...siyot btol...terpaksa redah jam kat sunway..buat U-turn utk masok ke NPE...kat NPE clear...kuar jek toll kat bangsar tuh...aku dah sangkut kat jam balik,,,STRESS nye waktu tuh tuhan jek yg tahu...aku suruh abg ngan kakak aku gerak dulu...tapi diorang nak tunggu jugak...so pukul 730 (nearly 2 hours) camtuh baru sampai Kota Damansara from Puchong...
SO kitaorg adik beradik sampai kampung kul 930 malam camtuh...org dah penuh kat umah nenek aku...kebetulan mak aku sempat habis kat umah nenek aku...setelah 5 hari duduk kat hospital...tuh pon sebab nenek aku cam dah nampak mak aku dah teruk sgt...and ajak bapak aku bawak mak aku balik umah...so sempat lah dia kat umah...mase tuh nenek aku and bapak aku mengadap...plus 2-3 other relatives...kitaorg adik beradik jek takde...sedihhhh giler...sian mak aku...rase terkejut sgt..sebab baru kelmarin nye tuh kitaorg jumpa dia...and dia pon takde lah jugak pesan apepe...dah lah dekat nak raya nih...itulah nama nye dugaan...
Sedih memang takleh nak describe lah...tapi bila tgk keadaan nenek aku...lagik lah bertambah sedih...nenek aku dah la mmg uzur...dia asek menangis selang 15 minit sekali...sian jugak kat bapak aku...bapak aku tuh manja gila ngan mak aku...tak pernah berenggang...lagik pon parents aku dah start tinggal berdua ever since aku yg bungsu nih masuk asrama masa form 4...tahun 1997...bayang kan lah perasaan dia nanti nak kena hidup sorang2...aku pon tak tau lah macam mana lagik...maybe lepas exam nanti akan ku consider kan berpindah ke PwC Ipoh untuk temankan bapak aku...tapi buat masa skrg nih macam2 nak kena consider...pening kepala...hati pon masih tak tentu hala nih...
Abah cakap masa mak nak pergi...dia tenang....pergi pon tak susah...alhamdullillah dapat mengucap sendiri and tak patah lidah...urusan pengkebumian hari tuh pon berjalan lancar...mak aku nih byk kawan....banyak sangat2...sebab dia nih jenis yg tak pilih kawan...tak pilih kedudukan atau bangsa...driver bas, orang susah, orang biasa, orang kaya semua dia layan sama rata saja...penuh kawan kawan dia dtg melawat kat umah nenek aku hari tuh...ramai sgt kawan2 satu taman umah aku (umah parents aku kat area lumut, kampung nenek aku kat area kampar) datang menziarah...her loss IS GRIEVE by lots of people...especially me + my dad + my grandma + my sis + my bro...barulah aku tahu camne perasaan nye menjadi anak yatim sekarang nih...Still leh terbayang bayang kan suara, wajah and tingkah laku mak...masa dia happy, masa dia garang, masa dia sedih and even masa dia sakit...
Mak akan sentiasa berada di dalam ingatan kami semua...We love you very very much...Al-fatihah...
PS: To all my frens who has shown me endless support..thank you very much...
To Shaz, Nizam, Sita, Endran and Louisa…extra thank you for coming all the way from KL despite the hari raya “jam”…I really really appreciate it…
To my fiancé Leman…no words could describe how lucky I am to have you in my life…you have always stand by me to show your love and support to me and my family in this difficulty of time…1-4-3…

Abg Nuar punye pasal..busy pon sempat blog..

Hellow...
My Life is VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY d hectic at the mo..before i knew it..the audit peak period is starting again..gone were the days when i can wake up whenever i wanted..530pm or earlier going back home time..blogging and frenster and surfing time..and the most time i would miss would be me not needing to berfikir and tak payah buat aper aper time...sighh...
Neway..Im blogging today (even tho im super duper duper busy! hehehe) cause yesterday night, i saw abang Anuar Zain at Borders @ The Curve..soooo cutee..a bit too skinny but still so kawaeeiii nevertheless..me (so jakun) dah nak amik gambar dah ngan dia..my sister dah ready kamera (brand new!hehehe) dah...but my very very loving and understanding fiance REFUSED..i repeat..REFUSED to entertain my request to take our pictures.."bukan lah..tuh bukan Anuar Zain lah"..rabun agaknye sayang aku tuh...my sister volunteered to take mine..but by that time i've already lost my courage to approach abang nuar..hikhikhik...and tetiba rasa macam poyo plak nak tangkap gambar dlm borders..ahahaha..to which my sister reply.."gatal betol"..as she has already put her kamera on standby mode...so..there we are (me + my sis) very jakun-ly nyuruk2 stared at anuar zain..while leman very ekshenly acted that he doesn't care ":P..(FYI : yours truly is a big fan of abang nuar...)
Esok sampai 2 minggu lagik..i'll be assigned in Seremban..but have to berulang alik for classes..i've foresee myself ponteng-ing class at least once a week for those weeks...
Baru 2 minggu puasa..and i've managed to asek makan besar aje..
1 day puasa : Buka puasa with ayong, leman and amirul @ Hartamas Square (nak pegi Tupai2 but tutup plak)
Cannot remember the sequence already :
= Buka puasa with Ihsan, Nafis and Shaya @ Nando's KLCC..
= Buka puasa with Raf + Reza, Berg + Louisa and Shaz @ Planet Hollywood..
= Buka puasa with Berg, Ihsan, Nafis and Akim @ Manhattan Fish Market @ Sogo
= Buka puasa with Nizam + Cicirina @ McDonald @ CM
= Buka puasa with Ayong @ Al-Marjan @ KLCC
The day before : Buka puasa with Ayong, Leman and Kak Sharina @ Nando's OU
Yesterday : Buka puasa with Ayong and Leman @ Planet Hollywood..again...
Haahahahha...since my weekdays would be fully occupied in Seremban for the next 2 weeks..my weekend has been fully booked too..
= Berbuka puasa with Jue, Intan and Skin @ you guess rite..Planet Hollywood again...hehehehe..
= Berbuka puasa with Ayong @ Westin Hotel
= Berbuka puasa with Ratna @ undecided yet..
= Berbuka puasa with PwC @ Sime Darby Convention Centre
Feww...that's a lot of eating involve there..not to mention a lot of moolah...
Im not sure i can blog again until hari raya..
so im wishing you all SLAMAT BERPUASA..and SLAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI...MAAF ZAHIR BATIN..

POST BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION POST

My 25 birthday celebration was memorable and enjoyable...
On the 22 of July, i organized a birthday bash plus a combination with another celebration, at the pool side area of my apartment..
My guest list were around 20 of my closest family and frens..some from Uni..some from ex job and some from current job..
I cooked my self proclaim "best" spagetti..but it got burnt..hahahaha...being me dunno how to control my new electric dapur gas (baik punya alasan) and also being me rushing (another baik punya alasan), and also me being tatau nak masak untuk 20 orang (hahahahah...nih alasan utama nih)..or my mother ever famous punye alasan --->> berangan lah tuh!!!! hehehehhe
Pepagi buta aku dah gi shopping kat Giant..and later at IOI Mall untuk cari baju nak matching with the theme..which is GREEN...but then sesia usaha kalau tau nak kena campak dalam swimming pool...huhuhuhu...TWICE!!!!
Menu utama : BBQ chicken prepared by my brother's gilfren..gile sedap siyut...sampai tak cukup..sausages..potatoes..garlic bread...the famously burnt spageti..domino's pizza (terpaksa order pizza sebab nak cover spageti hangus tuh!!hahhaha)...buah jambu from tapah...cheese cake (shaz yg baik hati bake kan), cheese cake secret recipe (kawan2 HSBC yg baik hati belikan), donuts and pringles (Ija yg baik hati belikan), makanan ringan, air non-alkohol pelbagai jenis (leman yg baik hati belikan) and fish nugget (Jue yg baik hati gorengkan)...
After the potong cake ceremony...Bee yg baik hati telah berpakat bersama Azie, Ayong, Karim and Leman..telah menenyeh cream cake kat muka aku..tuh sebenarnye nak distract jek..mission sebenar nak campak aku dlm pool kat belakang tuh...then they asked leman (yes..my beloved fiance) to pull me in..but of course la leman yg baik hati tak sampai hati nak buang fiance dia dalam swimming pool kan...hik hik...but obviously tak cukup baik hati untuk menyelamatkan tunang nya drpd di tolak masok ke dalam pool...huhuhuh...tapi cukup amat baik hati untuk terjun bersama sama ke dalam swimming pool...so basah lah berdua duaan...hehehehhe...then..tak lama lepas tuh..me trying to drag Nizam into the pool..but ending up Nizam tolak aku lagik skalik masok pool...huuwwwaaaa.....basah lencun balik...siyut jek..tak ci betul Nizam...
All in all...it ws a great day for me...
i got these presents:
Leman : kasut Sketchers (pilih sendiri punya...hehehehe)
Shaz, Nizam, Alisa, Louisa and Raf : Kasut Elle, x; odus and eclipse...very very the beautiful..
Ija and Joe : Sandal
Boy and Azie : Kasut tinggi + 2 CDs
Ayong : CD player Phillip + anak patung beruang kecik
Kamal : RM50 (i likeeee...hehehehe)
Patrick and Su yin : figurine Power Puff Girls
Mun Hoe : Gelang tangan
Skin + Intan : Lilin Potpurri
Jue : Eye shadow body shop
THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH EVERYONE...LOVES ALL YOUR GIFTS...slowly and painfully and costly..boleh lah aku memulakan kembali koleksi kasut ku...hehehhehe...LOVE YOU GIRLS/GUYS...Of course i love you the most Leman!! hehehe...
We missed Endran for the party as he was at the "down under"..
Today, 28 July 2006, i would like to wish ;
My cute and hensem tapi tak cukup tinggi brother; Zafri Hassan Basri and also Khairul Bee Bariah : HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! muahhhsss...
To BEE : Ade ubi ader batas...kau tunggu lah...nih birthday kau aku plak balas...hehehehhe....

CD ku dalam kenangan..

I am missing my CDs...huhuhuhu...
1) Dewa 19
2) Dewa - The best of Dewa
3) Peter Pan
4) Peter Pan - Bintang di Syurga
5) PADI
6) RADJA
7) Samson
8) Cokelat
9) Ari Lasso
10) Sheila on 7
11) Marcell
12) Agnes Monica
13) Rossa
14) Shanty
15) Glenn Fredly
16) Lifehouse
17) Gwen Steffani
18) Pink
19) My Chemical Romance
20) Snoop Dogg
21) Hoobastank
22) Britney Spears
23) Pussycat Dolls
24) Goo Goo Dolls
25) Ashley simpson
26) Kelly Clarkson
27) Stereophonic
28) Il Divo
29) Madonna
30) Lindsay lohan
And many more that i myself cant even remember..right now my best frens would be ;
1) Hits FM
2) Mix FM
3) Fly FM
4) ERA FM
5) HOT FM
6) RADIO MUSIK (layan hindustan siyot..heheheh)

Happy Me..

Halloooooo..
Im blogging at the hotel lobby at the hour of 1149pm..dah ngantukk...pagi tadik mak drive straight from KL to Ipoh yuolls..tapi kat sinih internet connection die free dan sgt lagu...best giler surfing...I'll be on leave on monday and tuesday too...got some important things to settle here...no..not eloping with Leman..mind you..hehehhe...as i type, that love of mine is in KL..while im here..sighhh...miss my Leman..
Yesterday was one of the very important, significant and happiest day of my life..I'm glad its all out now..and i could sleep more peaceful at nite..hehehe..thanks to all of my frens and colleuges who wishes me well..
My CONGRATULATIONS also goes to;
(i) Shaz (ii) Endran (iii) Irin (iv)Mira (v)Sita
(vi) and everyone else not mentioned here
To Nizam, jgn susah susah hati..we will all be supporting you along the way...tak lama lah bebeh..few months jek beza..with all my loans and bills...you are far richer than me anyway...ahhahaha...
And a big THANK YOU goes to the ever beautiful (harus lah puji lebih lebih kan...supaya lenkali you belanja kitaorg lagik!!!heheheh) Louisa for her treat at the California Pizza Kitchen that same day...
And also ...lots of loves, hugs and kisses goes to my beloved fiance..for the beautiful roses for the occasion...LOVE you lots huney...i miss you so much alredi...
I'm taking a small break from my ever hectic life rite now..
My ACCA classes will resume next week..meaning NO MORE SOCIAL life or ANY OTHER LIFE for me for that matter...siighhhhhhhhh...MALASSSSSSSSSSS nye nak pegi klas...seb baik kali nih ade geng..Shaz..kita harus lah jgn monteng slalu...hehehehe...
Assignments plak masih tak berhenti henti..lepas satu job ke satu job...stress ajer..but since the firm has revised the mileage claim..sejok lah hati skit kan..heheheh...
Next week onwards, i have to be one of the greatest circus performer of Puchong..as i have to juggle my Family, Love, Work, Study, Frens, Treasure Hunts and Whatever left of my life...and in between the equation comes Time and Money...huhuhuhuhuu...
PS : Im still fat..and i am aware im fat..and im sick and tired of people telling me im fat..I KNOW IM FAT..and I am bloody well trying to loss all these excess kilos..if only it is that easy and simple...sighhhh..maybe i should try harder eh..i will then..wish me good luck..the only way now is to strictly be on diet..cause as lame as an excuse as it is..i am too bloody busy to exercise..i could barely keeps my eyes open while driving from work at night...the tought of having to do 50 sit ups..or even mounting the 5 stairs up my apartment makes me just wanna puke blood..huhuhuh...these few months i would be working in the City...and i HATE the TRAFFIC JAMS...which added to my already stressful life..ssiiiiggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........

DUGAAN....

It's been a longggggggggggggg while since i updated my blog...been pretty busy with work and everydays life..actually my life is not at its happiest at the moment. Reasons being...
1) My car got hit last week..on friday somemore..aku dah happy happy balik kerja awal..dah nak sampai umah dah pon...si bodoh nih pergi langgar aku plak kat belakang..terkejut sekejap..my instinct is to get out of the car and check out the damage..tak terpikir langsung kut kut orang jahat ke hape...huhuhuh..seb baik bukan orang jahat..cuma orang yg buduh tatau bawak kereta jek..aku berenti nak masuk simpang...dia tetiba jek langgar belakang kereta aku..seb baik depan aku takde kereta lain..anyway..my bumper got only some scratches..not bad for a proton iswara..dent sikit pon tidak..but he's quite unlucky to have 1/3 of his front bonet kemek...hahahha..proton wira..seb baik bukan porton sazzy yg langgar aku..heheheh
2) tak sampai pon seminggu kena langgar dr belakang..kereta aku kena pecah plak...aiyooohhhhhhhhh...stresss nye..i park along the road side at my sister's condo at Kota Damansara..the losses are as follow;
i) 1 pair of Sketchers sport shoe
ii) 11 pairs of high heel shoes..seb baik takde monalo blahnik ke..jimmy choo ke..mau aku nangis guling guling..huhuuh...becos the bloody idiot stole ALL my shoes inside my car, last wednesday i went to work at petronas tower wearing a pair of bali slipers..got manik manik somemore..and very the tak matching with my baju that day..cause from home i turun pakai sliper..cause slalu masuk kereta baru tukar..mane aku nak tau dia kebas semua kasut aku,..termasuk yg dlm boot...and nak pergi beli kasut baru dah tak sempat..hari tuh pon sampai office client kul 10 pagi..huhuhu...
iii) Nice and beautiful CD casing with lots and lots of CDs inside...huuuwwwwwaaaaaaaa...sedeyyyyyyyyynye...CD indon ku yg kubeli byk byk from Bali and Jakarta..gone..hilang sekelip mata...i hope you rot in hell you bloody f***ker...ishkkk..mesti mat drug nih..i hope you'll have AIDS...babi punye org...babi pon tak mencuri tau...
iv) Lots and lots of cassettes...nih pon nak ke? menyesal tak buat car cleaning after i install my CD player...
v) 3 Sun glasses
vi) 2 biji bantal hiasan yg nenek aku buat kan...giler pathetic ah dia sampai bantal pon nak kebas...
vii) 1 biji bantal untuk tido..
viii) bekas letak kepala CD player (empty) and remote control CD player...
Those are the things that i recall having in my car..i think i have some more items missing but i cant remember for sure...there's a lot of things/junk inside my car...but it's now almost empty...huhuhuuh...sedeyyyyyyyyyyyyyy....agaknye kalau pegi pasar malam hari rabu nih mesti leh jumpa barang barang aku jual kat bundle agaknye...hehehe...
My brother said the pencurik did a free car cleaning for me..even asked whether he vacuum sekali ke tak..cisss..
However, i'm still tahnkful the son of babich is quite skillful..meaning he didnt break any of my car windows..he cungkil my lock..and he must have disabled the sound of my alarm..cause now its not working properly..and i still have my CD player intact..and the most important thing is i still have my Car...
3) My current job is very very stressful..dah lah kat KLCC..jauh siyut from Puchong..date line tight macam giler..kerja susah..ishk..pressure pressure...
4) Im broke and i still have to think how im suppose to pay for the tuition fees for my final ACCA papers..its all because of some stupid new rules imposed by the firm..
Im back at Perak now..tired and sleepy..i wish there's someone to take care of me..but since im still single..sighh'''...i guess i just have to take care of myself...huhuhuh....
There's a rumours that Leman's married..and people assumed im married too..the last time i checked (which is about everyday..hahahah)..he's still technically single BUT technically NOT AVAILABLE...mind you...and the last time i check (every milisecond)..i am certainly single but technically not available (except maybe for Takeshi Kaneshiro..ahaks..)...We're Engaged (me and Leman..not me and Takeshi K...hehehe)..but not married yet..nor are we planning to be any time soon (not in the financial year ended 31 December 2005 anyway)...dun worry, when the big moment is about to happen..i'll update it here ok...
Have a nice weekend o' noble readers of my blog..

1 Down ... 3 To Go!

Aiyohhh..baru jek lepas satu paper..tapi dot dah relaks macam dah abes exam...huhuhuhuh..malas sehhhhh..especially bila soklan soklan yg di target untuk paper hari tuh mostly tak kuar..chesss...
Neway, im at starbucks..again!! hehehe..ishk, but im not an israeli supporter ok..its just that im addicted to its coffee! poyo jek ! sebenarnye kalau dok umah asek tido..pipiku dah sebesar talam!! demmit... anyway, datang sinih plak melepak jek bersama rakan rakan...bahagia betol tgh study leave nih..and bahagia btol dah pindah damansara nih...my fwens are easily accessible..heheh..sian nizam terpinggir lah kau sensowang..mak dah tak layan dah sunway piramid oke...heheheh...sekarang mak IKEA frendly...dekat sket nak gi makan "KOREAN" food!! hahahahahah.... (sorry, tak klakar cause its a personal joke between me and some frens)
got 2 more days to study..or at least try too...today tgk CINTA...without Leman..ishk..kena paksa nih dia gi tgk jugak..sedeyy siyut especially cause my emotions are still unstabil after my Mom passed away...sedeyy siyut setiap kali teringat..dah la nak kawen nih..susah gile nak buat preparation tanpa ibuku di sisi...setiap kali terkenang jek nangis...sampai terkluar kluar contact lens aku...huhuhuhu...moga rohnya di cucuri rajmat..amin!
cepat lah abes exam..malas siyot..tapi lepas tuh nak kena kerja balik...what??? work after 5 weeks of holiday!! that's a tough one man...kan best kalau takyah kerja tapi gaji masok bulan bulan...gemok cam bola gym la aku dalam masa setahun...ok fine..sekarang pon dah gemok cam bola gym, make it double then :P
Last weekend shopping barang hantaran for myself with my Man2 and his little brother..Adam is all grown up now..i can still remember the very first time i met that fella...i told him he's been tagging us dating since he was 7 (he's 15 now!!)...wait till you go on dates..we will DEFINITELY tagged you plak...heheheh...kita jalan kat tengah tengah kan Sayang kan...heheheh...Nevertheless, after hours of shopping, i only managed to bought my watch..itupon kedai semua dah nak tutup dah..i quote Adam's statement ; "Kak Ina, dah beratus ratus kasut kita tengok hari nih..dari siang sampai malam..dah 3 shopping mall kita pergi..takkan satu pon Kak Ina tak suka kot...huhuhu..." hahahahah...well, memang cam tuh..time aku tgh tak de intention and duit nak shopping, banyak jek design yg cun cun and menarik perhatian kan..since all the shops were closing, and both my boys were complaining "dah tak rasa buku lali and tapak kaki!!" , we'll continue the shopping some other time...heheheh...
Time to go home..chances of studying seem VERY SLIM..today finally manage to install our ASTRO..and i bought 4 new story books from MPH...demmit..dugaan btol...take care kawan kawan...Rafirah selamat berjuang esok...all the best...buat sesiapa yg nak kasik aku cristmas presents, please do so..jangan malu malu plak ek..hehehhe...nite nite!!

7 in 1

Ideas Please !!
In 3 days..it would be me and Leman's 8th anniversary...
and i really dunno what to get him...
Any ideas??
I already gave him a sandal and a t-shirt for his birthday..just recently gave him a ring..past event he'd received lots and lots of shirts/t-shirts..guitar..wallet..belt...perfum..will be giving him a watch with the hantaran kawen..etc...
And with a tight budget (about 200-300)..can;t afford to buy handphone or hi tech gadgets..
Aiyohhh...dunno what to give..but i really have to get him sumthing..cause last year i tot he's too busy to buy me anything..and i'm too busy to buy him anything..so i ended up buying him nuthing..but it turned out that he bought me this beautiful gold necklace and pendant..and i felt so GUILTY after that...huhuhuhuhu..i think i only bought him his aniversary gift much later afterwards..hahaha..
SO if any of you have any ideas..please share with me..
April 11, 2006 Permalink Comments (0)



FREAKIN' FANTISTIC & FABULOUS HOLIDAY!!!
Last week was a total bliss...
Haaa...(relaxing sigh''..)..hehehe...
The Redang air did me good..that..plus the company of my beloved fiance, sister and frens, all the colourful fishes under the sea, the turtle, the FOODS...the beach, the sand, the living crab, the goreng crab..and most importantly..the AUDIT FREE life....
Aiyohhh...it was WORTH EVERY SINGLE CENT...No regrets at all..The details are as follows;
Friday (7 April 2005)
Went to work like usual...can't really focus..by 537 pm..switch off my lap top..went to Ayong..my Leman had also arrived from Tapah...Get ready..by 830pm, my bro Boy send us all to Hentian Putra..We arrived at about 9pm..tercangak bangak tatau nak pegi mana..almaklum tak pernah naik bas kat situ..tunggu Alisa and Nizam..Boarded the bus at 10pm..Sejok nak mampos despite me wearing a long sleeve shirt + sweater + shawl...arrived at Kuala Terengganu Bus Terminal at 6 am...
Saturday (8 April 2005)
Being transfer to the Jetty...Boarded the small feri to Redang..45 minutes later..we landed on the sandy beach..and surrounded by crystal clear baby blue plus baby green water...Check in our rooms..Which are just a few feet away from the sea...gile best lah sea view room dia..then..Alamak..malas lah plak nak cerita detail...Let me just sum up our activities...makan..snorkeling...makan...snorkeling...play pool...karaoke..play card games..sleep...makan...snorkeling..makan...play table tennis...play darts...snorkeling...makan..lepaking under the coconut trees just staring at the sea...makan...karaoke..card games...tido...
Yup..we makan and makan and makan and makan..no wonder my sluar kerja is tighter today...hahaha...but very the enjoyable and fun and happy...i dun even answer any calls during the week..not that anyone called me anyway..cause the one who calles me frequently is right beside me in Redang...hehehe...
During one of our snorkeling trip..me and Leman..always side by side each other (almost always when he's not to busy with the fishes and forgot about me...huhuh)..and while snorkeling under water..i mumble "I wove yo" to Leman..and he really really make me crazy happy by answering...from under the water..."I wove yu thu"...hahahahah...great communication skills eh??..Dalam air pon buleh paham "i love you.."...
We also went "turtle" hunting that first evening..i made the mistake of believing its turtle sight seeing..instead of turtle hunting in the OPEN SEA...god..i was damn terrified at that moment...my whole life depending on the life jacket im wearing...cause i did not know how to swim...credit to Nizam who could very macho-ly swim around the open sea without the life jacket on..i think it must be close to a 2 km swim that day...even Leman is not moving anymore..and had to be "berpegangan tangan dan ditarik oleh abang pulau..." so sweet..me clinging to My Sis..who in turn cling to the other Abang Pulau who pull us farther and farther into the Open Sea..Alisa is with another of the Abang Pulau..
After seem hours of swimming around..with me all the while scared to death..dah baca dah semua ayat ayat suci yg ku tahu dalam laut tuh..huhuhu..SANGAT TAKUT OK..it was so deep and hari dah semakin petang..my chest rasa nak explode...and i dun even know what the hell we're doing in the deep sea..But after what seem like hours..me and my sis did eventually saw the "turtle" swimming happily beneath us..he's big...then the abang suggest..Let's go baby shark hunting plak..."haaaa???"..oh noo...tidak...takmo mati kena gigit shark (the last CSI cant remember which one i watched..a girl got eaten by a shark)...but lucky me..no shark or even baby sharks were around despite us hunting..
By then..im totally exhausted..but the abang pulau suggest we swim back to the shore..."We whatttt???""",....noooooo im too tired to move...but anxious to get back..i agree nevertheless..and while i was swimming separuh mati to the shore...my beloved fiance' who's alredi selamat berada di atas bot..with Alisa..wave to us "action-ly"...hahh...kata cinta tapi biar jek aku nih terkial kial dalam laut sowang sowang...ciss...bertuah punye tunang..hehehe...
All in all..all of us had a GREAT and WONDERFUL and HEAVENLY time there...
We even manage to have another big feast of nasi dagang, keropok lekor and sotong goreng before we depart to KL at 10pm on Monday..
Before that, we even manage to do "some" or more like "borong" shopping in Pasar Payang..
And now..im back to reality..well..sort of anyway...im still having my "post holiday" mood on..
and there's another holiday coming up for me in less than one month..and soon after that my study leave is starting...wahhhh...syiokkknyeeee...asek bercuti aje..But for today..i have to try harder to complete my work by the end of the day..eventho im still having a "bus lag"...
April 11, 2006 Permalink Comments (0)


Work Hard Party Harder !!!
Yeaayy...
At long last (3 months really can feels like 3 years)..i've completed my audit assignment and bookings with K** Holding Berhad...Giler suffer..stress level overdose over and over and over again...hahahha...3 bulan jugak aku tak makan kat Richinie or with Juju.. (maybe sekali dalam setiap minggu jek)..gi keja tgk matahari..balik tgk bulan..sad and pathetic..
Enuf said..its over..but the damn peak period is still ain't over..the very next week..i'm alredi on another assignment..though less stress..but still a lot of work jugak..since me going on a holiday tonite..yerp..im going off to a beatiful beatiful island in the east coast of peninsular...supposedly 6 of us..but i of my fren had to cancel due to her last minute warning professional paper class..aiyoohhh..so sad..and so rugi..cause she'd alredi paid in full..and cause she cancel so near the departure date..the travel agency wont give refund..
WIth lots and lots of work to be completed..i had to always forced my "wandering" mind back to my auditor brain..i have to keep switching from "berangan" mode to "berfikir" mode..and from "malas kerja nak pergi bercuti" mode back to "kerja..kerja..kerja" mode...huhuhuhu..
Jap lagik tepat jam 6 petang..im packing man..dengan jeles nye..3 out of four of my travel mates..semua tak kerja pon today..ciss..poyo...bas malam lah wei..sempat kerja dulu...hehehhe...
LAst weekend managed to went and visit Nana and Baby Adriana...soooooooooooooo cuuttteeeeeee...rasa nak curik bawak balik...tapi nanti sape nak jaga..aku busy..juju lagik takleh harap..kang cekik budak tuh dia sumbat nestum kang...hahahahha....
Need to get back to work...demmitt..fokus dot..fokuss...!!!!
April 06, 2006 Permalink Comments (0)
Aiyohh..malas nye mau bgn pergi kerja today..cepat nye weekend ku berlalu..had a bz weekend..dua hari berturut turut gi Matta-MITM Fair..hehehehe...so im dead broke now..im soooo counting the days to my "double" holiday..
approximately 18 days from now..me and my frens are going to Redang..yeayyyy...i just have to endure another 2 weeks of pure torture..doing consol for this Client..then im off..bebas..free...merdeka...cant wait..
Then one month after my REdang trip...will be heading of to Jakarta wif my family plak..heheheh..mana tak sengkek..asek berjalan jek kerja nye..destress maa...at the rate im going..or at the current stress rate my life is leading...im in danger of booking a one way ticket to tanjung rambutan man..heheheh...
So for now..i just have to suck up and finish up all this tortorous work...everytime im stress..i'll just glance at the redang brochure (but currently Louisa's borrowing the that..so i just have to use my creative imagination)..ahhhh...2 more weeks...just 2 more weeks...
March 20, 2006 Permalink Comments (0)
Aiyohh..malas nye mau bgn pergi kerja today..cepat nye weekend ku berlalu..had a bz weekend..dua hari berturut turut gi Matta-MITM Fair..hehehehe...so im dead broke now..im soooo counting the days to my "double" holiday..
approximately 18 days from now..me and my frens are going to Redang..yeayyyy...i just have to endure another 2 weeks of pure torture..doing consol for this Client..then im off..bebas..free...merdeka...cant wait..
Then one month after my REdang trip...will be heading of to Jakarta wif my family plak..heheheh..mana tak sengkek..asek berjalan jek kerja nye..destress maa...at the rate im going..or at the current stress rate my life is leading...im in danger of booking a one way ticket to tanjung rambutan man..heheheh...
So for now..i just have to suck up and finish up all this tortorous work...everytime im stress..i'll just glance at the redang brochure (but currently Louisa's borrowing the that..so i just have to use my creative imagination)..ahhhh...2 more weeks...just 2 more weeks...
March 20, 2006 Permalink Comments (0)


Happy 84th Monthly Berseri seri too My beloved..
I love you more than words can say..
83 months ago..i become your gal friday..
Hope we'll be together until we're 83 years old.. (by that time, if both of us is still alive..there's small chance ade girl yg berminat lagi kat awak..so like it or not i'll guess you'll be stuck with me for the rest of our lives..kan? kan?)..we'll be the happy "crazy" old couple ok..
I wish i can hug and kiss you instead of hugging and kissing my lap top like im doing now...huhuhuh...dah pukul 10 malam..nak balik tengok tv...huhuhuhuh....
Though there's no words that can describe my love to you...
I guess "I LoVE You Very MuCh" will have to do at the moment ok sayang..
March 14, 2006 Permalink Comments (0)


WHINING
Sighhh...im still living life in the fast lane..sighhh again...i wishh..how i wish i could switch gear 2...huhuhuhu...Will still be in this client's booking for another 3 weeks..3 long and sickening weeks..buut i guess i should be thankful..there's worse job than this..
On Saturday..i went to Sunway..and i tot..oh..i'm stress and bored..and i wanna cut my hair..hahahah..one thing leads to another..as usual..i always cut more than i meant to initially...hehehehe..so after sharing some of my February's salary with the stylist at "a cut above"..i have a really short hair...the shortest i dared since i graduated...i asked for "maximum paras dagu ahh.."..but as usual..the ah moi mesti gatal gatal nak test power scissors dia..snip snip..snap snap..snip lagik sikit..dan lagi dan lagi dan lagik...haa...ambik kau..dapat rambut pendek..panjang skett jek dpd rambut si Leman kesayanganku itu...hahahha...seb baik Leman tak kisah..(dia nak kata aper..aku dah potong dah suketi ye tak?..)..but i actually like this new stail..makes my kepala yg besar dan berat ini ringan sedikit..tapi my fren Nizam's first word is : "Rambut kau kena gigit ngan anjing ke?"...hahahaha...siyut punye kawan..
Some of my frens dah jadik mommies/daddies..so dapatlah dot beberapa orang "adik" angkat baru (Kak Ina..not auntie ina ok babies??..heheheh) ..A very big conratulations to :
1) Skeimc and Asha
2) Aida and Hubby
3) Noly and Hubby (i went to visit Noly at PMC tadik..her baby is sooooo cute..and she's the one and only person yg dot jumpa setakat nih yg cakap beranak tak sakit..rasa lebih kurang cam berak keras jek..kewl gileee...without epidural oke...)
Nana and Dan akan menyusul sket hari nanti..can't wait for that one too..

Today Che Na' kawen kat Kulim..a big congrats too..so sorry i can't make it..all my damn leave are frozen at the moment..
A lot of people have already asked when's my big day..
To tell you the truth..i am very very bz at the moment..
Now until April : Audit Peak Period..
April : Holiday @ Redang
May : Holiday @ Jakarta
June : ACCA June Sitting
Then after that dah bz ngan ACCA class for final papers
Then puasa..
Then Raya...
Dec : ACCA Dec Sitting
Then holiday @ Singapore..
Then Audit PEak period start balik...and judging from the time i'm spending in client's office and wisma sime darby since 2 month ago..dun think it is a good idea to be married during this time..Cause i won't be able to focus on my work..when i know my yummylicious husband will be waiting at home..Then i'll feel more depress..and rasa nak resign..but i still can't resign...ehehhehe..so to not complicate matters..elok lah plan lepas tuh jek...
So dengan ijin Allah yg Masa Esa..My big day paling cepat pon would be after 2007's audit peak period...tapi kalau dah sampai jodoh awal..kami terima saja..peak period atau tak kan?
Saturday lepas me and Juju watched "Persona Nan Grata"..though its quite slow and draggy..i like the chemistry which i think exist between Hans and Isteri Yusry..hehehe...but Juju thought that the movie was a waste of our hard earned money..hahaha...
Time flew so fast on Sunday..rasa tak puas tgk muka Leman...
Then today dah kena keja balik...busannnn..dah la tinggal sowang..Ija ke "Down Under" and Juju ke North State..
Penat..nak balik dah kejap lagik..Have a nice day people..
March 13, 2006 Permalink Comments (0)


What a Crappy Day...
It's nearly 12am..and i've nearly work for 13 effective hours (tak termasok waktu gi kencing, makan, bermanja manja ckp tepon ngan Leman dan sebagainye..)..huhhuuuuuhhuhuhhu...uuuwwwaaa.....sedeyyyyyyy...nak balik...damn account need to be out by today..pinggang rasa nak patah...nafas sesak sesak (anxiety attack) dan mata rasa nak tido...tatau lah pukul berapa leh balik arinih...at times like this (which happen pretty often especially in the peak period)..i felt like i should switch job..
What should i be..i has to :
1) Pays well (the more the better)
2) Legal (no porstitution, drug tafficking, kidnapping etc..)
3) Be able to take a break as and when i feels like
4) Be able to shop as and when i feels like
5) No overtime
6) Lots of claims
Demm....the only job that could fit my expectation is to be a rich man's wife...hahahahaha...
Neway, earlier today i was touched :
1) Cause i feel this extra rush of love towards my Leman
2) Cause my grandma cried
The story goes like this..Last CNY..me and my sis and my bro went back to our home town..and my grandma joined us there..so on Saturday..when me and my sis (my bro went back to KL earlier due to work) are getting ready to come back to KL..handshakes..hugs and kisses to our grandma..suddenly she cried...ME..BEING THE EVER DRAMAQUEEN PLUS EMOTIONAL...of cos lah kan cry jugak (I think i got this trait from my grandma lah kan)...so i was weeping by the time i got behind the wheel..and all the way back to KL i still feels sad (credit given to my sis yg sgt cekal hati melihat adiknye menangis..hahahha)...
So..i have asked my beloved fiance to drop by and visit my grandma if he's around the area..and today he really did when and visit her..just him alone..i just feels like hugging and kissing him over and over again..this is one of the million reasons why i love my Leman (let's not go to the reason when he can be annoying today eh? hehehe)..but then..my Leman told me that my grandma cried when he was there (tears of joy i presumed)..she always like to have him around visiting..(boleh jadik cucu menantu feveret nih)...so when he told me that she cried..ME still BEING THE DRAMAQUEEN..also feels touched and wanna cry.;.but since im in office..i just hold back my tears..
In the evening..i call my grandma to check on her..and guess what,..yerp..she still cries upon hearing my voice...adeii..mencabar minda betul...kang kalau nangis kat ofis nih..org ingat aku nervous breakdown sebab kerja plak kang (has happened before in this firm..but not me la..not yet anyway)..
So.. i pujuk her sket..and then i called my parents to tell them..but me being the anak bongsu..i will always cry upon hearing my father's voice (just him saying HELLO)..IF I"M FACING SOME PROBLEM or TROUBLE..seb baik by the time my air mata berlinangan dah over office hours so dah tak byk org kat sekeliling me...heheheheh...
Now im worried about my grandma..becos being the dramaqueen herself..she never cries this much before..but im really swamp with work at the mo..next week off to seremban again..Maybe she's just lonely and misses our company kut...( NOTE : She was married at the age of 19 and become a widow at the age of 21 and never remarry again until this day !!! ) Takpe Opah..jgn "teroyak" dah..nanti lepas abes peak period ina balik okeh..
Back to work..
February 23, 2006 Permalink Comments (0)



Aiyohhhh...
Result exam kluar arinih..
and as expected..i failed my 3.1...hahahahaha...
tatau lah nak rase sedey ke hape?? klakar gak rasenye being an auditor and failing the audit subject.. nak dwell lame lame pon tak sempat.. cos this auditor is currently damn bz.. lagipon ape nak dwell lelame..
1) It's not the end of my world
2) I do expect to fail..hahahaha..
3) i could just retake it again this round..since im not taking any papers pon..
But the taste of failure is BITTER man.. i never tested any during my Univ time..but its not the same at all..nampak nye kena lah rajin rajin pegi klas balik...demmit..
i main concern now is that my exam date would not be clashing wif any of my close frens wedding date..hahaha...especially those outstation ones..
back to work..
February 20, 2006 Permalink Comments (2)

Whining & More Whining :P

Siggghh...ssiggghhhh again...and again and again and again...
For weeks..i haven't had the oppurtunity to not work on saturday..thus, today and tomorrow i will really cherish my WEEKEND..plus the occasional business calls from my client contact in Kota Bharu...plus all the questions and ever growing outstanding list of work to be done...plus the ever nearing crazy datelines...deemmmmmmiiittttt....okay..maybe i lied...even on my suppose to be beautiful weekend also i cant rest well..head keeps thinking this and that...hati tetap tak tenang..aiyohhhh...baru tadik mase aku tgh breakfast kat McD ngan my Leman..client aku call..sebab kat Kelantan working day arinih...aiyoohhhh...i need a break...even my housemate is complaining...siggghhh...cepat lah diorang sain account..cepat aku leh hidup dgn aman...
Every day..bgn pagi gi keja...balik keja tido..nak tukar baju basuh muka semua pon tutup sbelah mata..kepala letak bantal..GONE...hahahahah...macam pakai suis otomatik daa..
now im typing away at CC again..trying desperately but failing..to not keep thinking about work..demmit..aku dah jadik one of those workaholic and pathetic loser yg tak leh balance work and life..huhuhhu...only when im with Leman did i managed to forgot work for a while..except when the client called tadik..
En. A : Halo..Zarina..figure yg awak bagi nih lari lah RM100.. kenape eh?/
Aku yg tgh makan Big Breakfast @ McD : ..bla..bla..bla..manage to tell him where the mistake is even without my beloved second brain (laptop), bla bla bla...
En. A : haa..yg nih Profit and Loss jadik RM (im not listening)..
Aku yg tgh minum kopi @ McD : aaallaaa..saya takle hafal figure tuh.. kalau semua saya hafal must be something wrong somewhere tuh..hehehe..saya tgh deting lah nih En. A..kacau daun betul lah you nih.. hahahaha..
En. A : gile ape deting kul 11 pagi.. (penduduk kelantan jarang deting awal awal pagi kat Mc D kut...hehehhe..no offence to any Kelantanese readers)..
Now, thanks to him..i can't continue my beautiful day with a peace of mind..Leman pon dah balik..cos he got work later (sigh..we often had clashing working hours)..but we're meeting again for dinner later..and i tot of going to Istana Budaya for PGL The Musical..see la how..tah ader tiket lagik ke tidak nih..
Gile pening aa bau bauan yg dtg drpd mat mat "bangsa tidak diketahui" tapi bukan bangla nih...rasa nak muntah balik big breakfast aku tadik..
Sorry for such a whining post..ehehehe...Have a nice and wonderful weekend..

Happy V-Day

Tomorrow is V-day..or for me..it's my monthly anniversary again..
This time of the year, i would be getting a lot of fwd mails about the history of St. Valentine..and they said that ,that's a reason enuf not to celebrate it by any muslims..
However, ever since me and my leman has been together, we always cherish every 14th date of the month..thus, if it co-incidentally falls on valentine day..we will also celebrate it..some years i got flowers..some years i got cards..some yeaRS i got chocs...but every year i got lots and lots of loves...
However, this year i wont be getting anything...in fact..i'll be working...like what im doing right now..at 1058 at nite...ssiiiigghhhh...it kinda suxx tho...i'm really struggling to balance my work life and social life...seb baik my leman pon tak boleh nak balik kl to celebrate this so call "Hari Memperingati Kekasih"..kalau tak mesti aku sakit hati kena keja and takleh candle light dinner...or ever dinner at Kentaki Fried Ciken..
To My Fiance : Happy 94 month anniversary baby...lots of lurves, hugs and kisses...muaahhhsss...

nak nangis (@_<)

huk huk huk...nak balik lahhh...busan ah duduk sinih berjam jam...dah ler takdek orang orang hensem di sekeliling yg bulih di buat pencuci mata...hahahah...im still in seremban..which kinda sux..cause i expect to be back to KL by 6pm..but nampak gayanya macam tak boleh jek..dah lah esok pon kena kerja jugak...ishkkkk...benci betol lah...kalau lah aku kaya...atau aku dah kawen ngan orang kaya...esok jugak berenti kerja...heheheheh...keep on dreaming eh?? apesalah nye sekali sekale mimpi..lately nih nak tido pon tak sempat...jangan kan kata nak bermimipi...every day...letak jek kepala atas bantal..dah padam..bismisllah pon tak abes agak nye...huhuhuh...teruk nye...then esok nye..alarm bunyi...tgn otomatik jek tkn snooze...sambil tutup mata...hahahhaha...serius dah pro...pagi tadik even managed to totally ignored the damn thing..even my fren yg tido kat bilik sebelah pon dgr..and tension sebab aku tak tutup tutup alarm yg berbunyik 10 minit sekali...hahahaha....next week nampak gaya nye kena kembali ke seremban lagik...busan ahhh aku asek keluar masuk hospital..memula tawakal..then hospital pakar perdana kat kota bharu.,.now seremban specialist...when is this torture gonna end...

oorayyy...

Hooray...
It's the BLOODY Audit Peak Period time again..
I'm MISSING :
1) My Sulaiman
2) My 8 hours of beauty sleep
3) My "tilam" span @ Puchong
4) My TV time
5) Kedai Makan RIchinie kat belakang umah @ Puchong
6) My pimple free face
7) My housemates (especially the one who only claim she read "women's weekly"..yeah right!!)
8) My frens (but i find comfort by knowing most of them are suffering as much as i do...hahahahaha)
9) My blogging time
10) My lepak takyah pikir or buat apepe time...
Huuuwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaa....so pathetic....seb baik aku takdek kucing...kalau tak dah mati kering dah dia tak makan...or maybe kena racun ngan jue ngan ija sebab aku selalu sgt tinggalkan kucing tu kat umah...so diorang terpaksa bagi makan pada kucing khayalan aku tuh...

I aM STiLL VERY MuCH a CrY BabY…

Aiyoooohhhh…guess I should add another resolution for 2006..
To stop being a cry baby…hehehehehe…

I just finished watching “KABHI KUSHI KABHI GAM”…. For the 2 or was it for the 3 time..?? And I cried an ocean…much worse than those crying for the PEARL HARBOUR (check earlier posting)…huhuhuhuhu…”kena tipu dek industan”..bak kata my father…hehehehe..

What to do…dah hati dah sedeyy..air mata senang jek kluar...Actually if I started crying..its easy to keep crying…hahahaha…I cried everytime somebody in the movie cried..and to those who are not fans of industan movie, believe me that they cried a lot throughout the movie..hahaha…

I lost count after the 6 times I cried throughout the KKKG movie…and after that I stop all attempt of counting dah…mau bengkak mata nih esok…klakar plak rasanya…
I blamed it on the hormone..yup..those estrogens…hahahha…oh..and also the zodiac..im a true “cancer-ian”…which is said to be the most sensitive type of person..i couldn’t agree more..hahhahahah…

When I watched the movie @ the cinema for the first time… I dun remember cyring THAT much…maybe becos I was watching wif Leman…and he likes to make such a big fuss if I cry in the movie…such as “alalalala..sayang abang menangis ke?? Syyhhh..jgn nangis eh..jgn nangis..” (deeee…did he needed to state the obvious? Tak nampak ke dah banjir dah TGV SUnway Piramid nih..heheh)…So in the end..he always make me feels like laughing…so I’ll be crying and laughing at the same time…saiko eh??

But overall, I really enjoy the movie..AGAIN…hehehehe…Love the songs and the dances…I think im more connected wif any movie when I watched it by myself…except any horror movies in any languages…

Earlier today I was busy treasure hunting @ the SS15 Subang Jaya Area…Walk-a-hunt…and this time our team (me and my sis) managed to win RM100 again (RM50 each)..Which we then spent on a warehouse sale nearby…hahahahha….

Earlier than the treasure hunt…Ija’s car got hit by a Stupid2 van…luckily she was unhurt and okay…my car was park about 2 metres from hers…Im also lucky the stupid van didn’t hit my car…I was accompanying ija while she’s waiting for her dad…when her dad arrived, he’s so cool and macho (just like all dads) while settling the whole thing…we gals sux at this thing…even when the situation arises that required you to handle it ourselves…i believed we still sux at it….hahahhaha..at least for me…and im talking through experience…

Its 245 in the morning…and I think I should stop rambling…im hungry…AGAIN?? Camne nak kurus…asek nak makannnnn jekkk…hehehehe…padahal tadik dah dinner nasik goring dah..tapi nih takde makanan nak makan..and dah takot nak kuar bilik gi dapor..sebab juju and ija takde kat umah tonite….hehehhee..so perut..bersabarlah sampai esok tengahari eh (im not going to set my alarm clock tonite..I love Sundays)…hehehehhe…But maybe I should set the clock to make sure I’ll wake up before MELODI starts…Good nite everyone…

I am still very much a cry baby!

Aiyoooohhhh…guess I should add another resolution for 2006..
To stop being a cry baby…hehehehehe…
I just finished watching “KABHI KUSHI KABHI GAM”…. For the 2 or was it for the 3 time..?? And I cried an ocean…much worse than those crying for the
PEARL

HARBOUR(check earlier posting)…huhuhuhuhu…”kena tipu dek industan”..bak kata my father…hehehehe..
What to do…dah hati dah sedeyy..air mata senang jek kluar...Actually if I started crying..its easy to keep crying…hahahaha…I cried everytime somebody in the movie cried..and to those who are not fans of industan movie, believe me that they cried a lot throughout the movie..hahaha…
I lost count after the 6 times I cried throughout the KKKG movie…and after that I stop all attempt of counting dah…mau bengkak mata nih esok…klakar plak rasanya…
I blamed it on the hormone..yup..those estrogens…hahahha…oh..and also the zodiac..im a true “cancer-ian”…which is said to be the most sensitive type of person..i couldn’t agree more..hahhahahah…
When I watched the movie @ the cinema for the first time… I dun remember cyring THAT much…maybe becos I was watching wif Leman…and he likes to make such a big fuss if I cry in the movie…such as “alalalala..sayang abang menangis ke?? Syyhhh..jgn nangis eh..jgn nangis..” (deeee…did he needed to state the obvious? Tak nampak ke dah banjir dah TGV SUnway Piramid nih..heheh)…So in the end..he always make me feels like laughing…so I’ll be crying and laughing at the same time…saiko eh??
But overall, I really enjoy the movie..AGAIN…hehehehe…Love the songs and the dances…I think im more connected wif any movie when I watched it by myself…except any horror movies in any languages…
Earlier today I was busy treasure hunting @ the SS15 Subang Jaya Area…Walk-a-hunt…and this time our team (me and my sis) managed to win RM100 again (RM50 each)..Which we then spent on a warehouse sale nearby…hahahahha….
Earlier than the treasure hunt…Ija’s car got hit by a Stupid2 van…luckily she was unhurt and okay…my car was park about 2 metres from hers…Im also lucky the stupid van didn’t hit my car…I was accompanying ija while she’s waiting for her dad…when her dad arrived, he’s so cool and macho (just like all dads) while settling the whole thing…we gals sux at this thing…even when the situation arises that required you to handle it ourselves…i believed we still sux at it….hahahhaha..at least for me…and im talking through experience…
Its 245 in the morning…and I think I should stop rambling…im hungry…AGAIN?? Camne nak kurus…asek nak makannnnn jekkk…hehehehe…padahal tadik dah dinner
nasikgoring dah..tapi nih takde makanan nak makan..and dah takot nak kuar bilik gi dapor..sebab juju and ija takde kat umah tonite….hehehhee..so perut..bersabarlah sampai esok tengahari eh (im not going to set my alarm clock tonite..I love Sundays)…hehehehhe…But maybe I should set the clock to make sure I’ll wake up before MELODI starts…Good nite everyone…

2 january 2006

Adddoiiiiii....cakit segala tulang temulang dan kaki kakiku yg berisi bak bunting kucing ini..huhuhuh...
Yesterday (2 January 2006) ...after work (yup..darn those stock take)..the weather in Puchong was so "zen"..so when i by pass the padang (which i pass every single day since the last 1 year..but which i never even set foot on)...I tot.."maybe i should go jogging today!"
Wif all the semangat yg berkobar kobar..i went back to change first..then drove there...Actually..i still can't believe myself for wanting to do this.. the thing is..i have not been jogging since 6 years back (oh my god..no wonder im so fat alredi..hehehhe)...and i haven't been jogging ALONE since the day i was borned..ak ak..no no..no way im gonna jog alone...But maybe its the spirit of the brand New Year..maybe...
So there i was..jogging my hearts out ALONE..for about 40 minutes..ok maybe i lied..maybe i jogged for 20 minutes and i WALKED for 20 minutes kut...hahaha...tuh pon seb baik tak cramped..And the whole while i was on alert..all those horrifying scenes from CSI whereby the founded dead bodies in the park...shudder...
But everything went on smoothly..I actually had a time of my life...and it still felt good..UNTIL i woke up this morning...
ADddoooooiiiiii...then only did i regret the whole thing...why oh why aku so gatal gatal mau pegi jogging semalam...making all my muscle rasa cam nak putus...huhuhuhuh...memang lemah betul kan..hahaha...
But i am actually proud of myself...From time to time..or when the situation or needs arrived..i can survived by my own...I can eat/dine in a restaurant alone (not tapau)...I HAVE WATCHED MOVIES ALONE (though this feel pretty pathetic...huhuhu)..I always go shopping alone (but i think a lot of gals are able to do this..bile shopping dah tak kisah hal dunia dah kan..)..and i have gone jogging alone..hehehe.. You Go Gurl !!
The only thing that kept me from doing these too often is those stories in the news/papers about the "saikos" and "rapist" and "murderer" and dunno what "monster" out there..which make the DIY activities not so secure...
But if given a choice..i always prefer the company of my fiance, family and frens to accompany me..but life is short..and its more pointless to wait for people to accompany you in order for you to be able to do sumthing...So to all those girls out there who has never done anything by herself..you should try it for yourself...But just remember to bring along your "pepper spray" to accompany you..heheh..owh..and for beginners, you might not wanna watch a movie by yourself... :)
P/S: Esok i've taken a leave...and lusa onwards i've started my final audit alredi..so to all my frens and blog readers (if any)..Enjoy your 2006...Wishing you all the health, wealth and happiness...
January 02, 2006 Permalink Comments (0)

1 January 2006...

Another year has past...and a new year has just begun...
and I AM..still a "cembeng" (note : a word to describe someone who likes to cry..huhuhu..)
I spent my new year's nite watching the re-run of PEARL HARBOUR at Tv3..
I cried when Rafe (Abang Ben) died..and i cried even harder when Danny (Abang Josh) died..
huhuhuhhhhhh... I tot i would be tougher in 2006.. oh boy..i was proved wrong..
the very first day of the new year... hahahhahaa..
The worse part is..citer dah abes pon..dah kuar semua nama nama pelakon..
I continued crying..because..the "There You'll Be" song is so menyedihkan...
hahahahaha,...
Now after a bucket of tears later..here i am typing away on my tilam in my bedroom..
When the clock strike 12 am today (1 January 2005).. i felt...NOTHING!!!
This year i decided not to join any party or celebration..
Feels like im getting too old to join the crowd and the noise and the jam (especially the jam)...
And also thank you to all the never ending stock take...huhuhuh..
my feet hurts doing all those walking around the warehouses..
Tomorrow is another day of attending stock take..
Lucky it will only start at 230..if not tomorrow im gonna look like a mess wif my puffy eyes..
due to lack of sleep and the crying..hehehe...
It's nearly 2 am now.. and I am hungry...
Like usual..i always tend to try to make my resolution come through at the early stage of the new year..
hehehhe..biasa nya masuk february dah lupa dah..
So i started wif the first one on my list... to loss weight..thus..i've been skipping my dinner for a few days alredi..
but the problem is...i am hungryyyyy...my perut dah bunyik bunyik dari tadik...
cepat lah siang so that i can go to McDonald to have my Big Breakfast...
hahahahahhaha...
Camaner lah semua org yg tak suka makan malam tuh leh tahan eh??
I ate fruits..tons of them..manggoes..apples..jambus...tapi kenyang sekejap jek..then my perut dah lapar balik...
cisss...saje jek perut gemok nih nak sabotaj my diet...huhuhu...
My Baby is back..but i haven't seen him yet...
He claimed to still have jet lag..
Cehh..3 jam jek beza.. mengada ngada jek lebey kan...
Today he even slept without kissing me good nite first....
Merajuk terus..hehehe...
Going back to the Pearl Harbour movie... Kate Beckinsale was sure put on 'persimpangan dilema"..
when she has to divide her love for 2 guys..
Personally.. i think 3 month is a bit early to start a new relationship after ending one meaningful one kan..
At least if you at least waited at least 1 year (wow cool..3 at least in 1 sentence)..it's justifiable..But the time of the intervening period is actually judgemental...
Different person might have a different perspective kan..
But if the situation is reversed..wouldn't you like for your love one to grief for a while before resuming his/her own life
(oh my god..does this makes me a selfish b*****??? ahhahahaha... tak kut..)
Its not like you wanna cursed her/him to never love again..its just that you wanna feel cherish..
(although im sure the dead couldn't care less what the living are doing eh??)
I think i better stop now before i ramble on tatau tah hape hape lagik..
Should i succumb to my desire of roti celup nestum campo milo??
or roti celup nescafe? or maggi (mungkin tidak, sebab tak rasa cam nak mkn megi)
Goodnite World..
....Love...Peace and Empathy....
January 02, 2006 Permalink Comments (0)

Ye ye.. My doctor love is coming home..

The love of my life is coming home tomorrow...This is the longest 12 days in this year..I missed him so much...angau pon ade jugak..nasib baik im being kept bz with Grey's Anatomy and Desperate Housewives Season 2...
I need to work all the way this weekend... SuXX..need to work from 31 Dec to 2 Jan..how worse could that be??
Next week onwards (after 5 Jan).. I would be very very very busy..thus..it maybe weeks before i'll update my blog again..
Just wanna wish all of you..
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006 !!
May you all have a wonderful and cheerful year ahead....

Imbasan Tahun 2005

Another 3 days and 2005 would be "last year" ...Thus, im summarising my whole year's experience in this posting..Please bear in mind that throught the financial year 2005 period, i have to WORK and occasionally went on a date wif Leman.. I also have to eat..drink..sleep..went to the loo..blogging..and repeating the whole process over and over again..
January
Events: Abah's birthday and Leman's birthday..
Description : A month whereby im dead broke..hehehe..every day i live based on "bila gaji aku nak masuk nih..???"... ohw..and this should be an audit peak period..but im not suffering that much in Harrisons..
February
Events : Valentine's day..
Description : Demmit..can't even remember what i did during this month..Dun even know what i did during valentine..mesti tak special pon..hehehhe..cause i always remember this one valentine whereby me and Leman went dating at the Zoo Negara with the Lions, Elephants, Girraffe, Zebra even B.A.B.I pon ader..hehehhe...
March
Events : Jue's birthday..
Description : Remember bringing Jue out for dinner..and that's it..the rest of the other 30 days..i cannot remember what i did..demmmmmmmmm..short term memory lost ke???
April
Events: April Fool and 7th Anniversary
Description : It has been 7 years since me and my boifren met each other..Serious?? lama jugak ek?? how could i still be alive after 7 years of irritating each other..hehehhe... I LOVE YOU MY BELOVED BOYFREN...
May
Events : Must be a boring month cause i cant remember any...huhuhuh...
June
Events : Ayong's birthday..Along's birthday..
Description : Went to surprise Ayong for her birthday..have a war of icing cake..
July
Events : I am 24 years ol'...Boy is 26 years ol'
Description : Celebrated my birthday wif Leman and Ayong..and later being surprise by Irin, Shaz, Nizam and Endran..Im thankful im bless with so much love and happiness.. Celebrated Boy's birthday at REdBoX The Curve...
August
Events : Merdeka...KSP Nite
Description : CElebrated at Hartamas wif Irin, Alisa and Louisa..have a blast of a time..Having a great time at KSP Nite @ REnaissance Hotel...
September
Events : BALI
Description : went to BALI..have a very very very wonderful time.. come back to Malaysia..after 3 weeks..Bali got bomb..again! ... I'm thankful Im still alive..oh..and have a blast of a time in Annual Dinner @ Mandarin Oriental..and Treasure Hunting to PD...wow..such a bz month...
October
Events : Puasa
Description : Toning down all my activities (wish i could tone down on going to work too..hehe)..
November
Events : Hari Raya Puasa ... My Engagement
Description : Happy beyond words..
December
Events : ACCA Examination
Description : A lazy month..need to forced myself to study..and took the exam..expecting to fail a paper kut..hahahaha..."kut" jer..but im still optimistic anyway..Starting of Audot Peak Period cycle again..sighhhh.....
Summary : 2005 has been a great great year for me.. i age twice faster since entering PwC...But i think i'm still a cry baby..and i do have occasional cases of emotional breakdown..hehehe...Im proud to survive my first year within the firm (i used to want to resign every single day within the first 3 month..hehehe)..Manage to survive the peak period..the drama..the sales..the RED HAIR..and many many more..Hope 2006 will be better...

Azam Tahun Baru 2006

Some or most of these resolution has been brought forward since..forever....
1) Need to Loss Weight !! (this one is since I'm 17..but seriously..this time i mean it..i AM indeed FAT and becoming FATTER each year..huhuhu..blamed it on those spagettis..and cheese cakes..and stella cereal chocolates..and bbq chicken wings..nasik lemak panas..and all those sinfully delicious foods in the world..huhuhuh)
2) Need to make more money (Since i started working)
3) Need to spend/shop less (Since everytime im feeling broke..hehhee...)
4) Need to be nicer when provoke (this is new)
5) Need to complete my ACCA papers this year.. (this is new)
6) Wanna learn a new languange (everytime i look at Takeshi Kaneshiro..feels like learning Japanaese..everytime i look at some hunky dude with a spanish accent..feels like learning Spanish..and there's french...and mandarin...and hindustani.. OK..maybe i should strike this one out from my resolution list for this year eh?)

Beware : Yucky post for the Ganaz Hearted

uhuhuhuhuhu...
Saya sangat rindu leman..huk huk...Ek eleeee..gila lemah ah aku nih..baru 4 hari..dah rasa macam 4 bulan jek..camne nak survive 10 hari nih?? how?? how?? The worst part is..My leman's credit dah abes..kat sana satu sms cost RM2..aku sms dia 5 sen jek..hhehehe..tadik sebab dah rindu sgt..i called him..we talk for 1 "wonderful" minute..aku dah senyum senyum simpul ala ala "Julita Aisyah"..hiks hiks..tapi lepas tuh leman msg balik..cakap that single call cost him RM10..dot kena RM1 jek..huuhuhuh..so lepas nih mesti leman dah tak msg da..terpaksa la dot jek yg syok sendii msg dia sowang sowang...tak best nye perasaan nih...
The thing is..we had a bad bad bad argument right before he left for his holiday..its all just a big misunderstanding..and all cause he's does not "berterus terang" wif me..and being the typical "dramaqueen" that i am..you guys should be able to imagine lah kan? hehhee..Actually dot ingat taknak berbaik pon ngan dia sampai dia abes holiday (macam terer jek..mau agaknya 12 hari 12 malam aku tido berendam air mata)..tapi sebab tetiba tgk news kata tgh Riot skrg nih kat Australia..so dot agak risau..so membiarkan diri ini dipujuk...ahakss...dun get me wrong..i have amy equal and fair share utuk menjadi pihak yg memujuk..when i believe it is my fault (yeah you're right..it does not happen often...hahahahah...)..
Hari nih tukar lagu lain..
"bila rinduuu..terkenang mu sayang ku rasa sayu..
syahdunya hatiku bila malam..makin kelam..
terkenang dirimu...(like always..i always forgot the lyrics..)
What should i do this weekend?? Bored..
Dah 2 tahun kata nak gi singapore time christmas tapi still tak pegi pegi jugak..
next year im hoping it will finally come true..
This weekend should be used to determined what my Next Year's New Year's Resolution should be...
Happy Holiday!!

My Life

I am currently:
1) Lonely : Uwwaa....kena tinggal ngan Leman 2 minggu..member pergi bersuka ria kat Australia..huhuhuhu...nak ikottttt...
2) Missing my fiance : "Angin bayu membawa diriku..sepintas lalu kuterkenangkan mu..memori silam meresap malam..kenangan bersama ...... (menyanyi dengan penuh perasaan tapi dah terlupa liruk plak..potonggg ahhh)
3) In Pain : Bapak ahhhh sakit gigi "bongsu" aku yg nombo 3 nih!!!! giler ker hape..setahun tatau lah berapa kali dia tumbuh..2 dah cabut..lagik 2 takde duit plak nak cabut...huhuhuh..tuh belom cerita agik sakit nak cabut gigi tuh..dentist tuh tarik..cam kepala pon terikut sama nak tercabut...huhuhhu..Cian Caye Cakit Gigi Caye yg Bongsu..
4) Stress : Bapak ah agak bz sekarang nih..huhuhuhu...dah tak pernah dah nampak matahari masa balik kerja..hehehe..tapi sebenarnya sampai pon lambat..tambah tolak tambah tolak..lebih kurang 9 jam jugak..hehehehe...saje jek nak emosi lebih..tapi mmg serius stress sebab kena deal directly dgn Finance Manager yg sgt sgt KIASU tahap oltromen taro nye musuh ketat sejak 10 taun yg lalu..nak mintak document..aku mintak kul 400 supaya aku leh balik kul 630..tapi member kul 630 baru sengih sengih hantar document..sajek jek nak jaki tak kasik aku balik kul 630 lah tuh..keji gile kan..kan..??
5) Unhappy : Sebab dah terlebih amik cuti 2 hari untuk tahun nih..huhuhuhhu!!! how was that possible?? i oso dunno..but it did..so aku tgh lah bz meng-volunteerkan diri pada kakak yg jaga timetable keja aku tuh...supaya bagi aku keja (ie: stock take etc) pada hari sabtu or ahad..soo..this week sabtu kira spare part kereta and next week sabtu kire wayer letrik kot..ngeh..ngeh..ngeh..save duit akak takyah bayar unpaid leave..hehehe..lagipon semua org macam bz and tak free to entertain me..huhuhhu..mak bapak jauh..ade tunang pon dah jauh jugak..kengkawan samada bz nak balik kampung halaman or bz berdating or bz lah serba serbi nya...huhuhu..ke aku yg tak banyak kawan??? tapi macam takde lah tak byk kawan sangat...huwwaaaaa...kesiannye..hehehe..terpaksa la melepak kat umah membesar dan melebarkan badan yg sememang nya dah besar dah lebar..Sighhhhhh......
6) Kebas buntut sebab dah sejam duduk kat Cyber Cafe nih...pathetic gile kan?? hahahaa..kalau tak pasal nak amik email from manager..tak kuasa mak nak lepak sinih..mesti dah baring baring kat sofa kat umah tuh...ishkk alamak..nak terkenc plak dah..till next time..Have a nice day..happy coming holiday...

All About Love

Things that can me SMILE:
1) Leman (yup..this one can make me cry as well)
2) Shopping
3) Dapat tido mase tgh hujan lebat kat luar (tapi kalau masa tgh ujan lebat, and dot kat ofis, tak best langsung sebab asek terpikir "alangkah bestnye kalau dapat balik tido..huhuhuhhu")
4) Tengok lampu lampu yg byk (hehehe..i always wanna go to SIngapore..dgn alasan nak tgk lampu..so my frens always said that..setakat nak tgk lampu kat Puchong pon bulih..hehehe..tak sama maa..dot suka tgk lampu byk byk kaler...kalau lampu kelip kelip pon best..tgk lampu byk byk rasa bahagia..) --> lampu kereta kat jalan and lampu pendaflour yg kelip kelip sebab starter rosak tak kira..
Semalam dot dah sleepy at 11pm..nak abeskan CSI Miami pon rasa nak terkeluar bijik mata..akhirnya tewas dan tertido jugak after 10 minutes citer tuh start..then bila bgn dah pukul 3 pagi..so start study..then after subuh..dah malas..tapi tak berapa ngantuk lagi..so i decided to watch the a dvd : "All About Love"..actually, I have alredi beli the VCD so many weeks ago...but then asek tak berpeluang tgk..and bila nak tgk..vcd takde subtitle melayu/english (kat cover kate ade)..lepas tukar 2 kali pon still takde subtitle..so dot upgrade ke dvd..so melayan lah cerita tuh..(sampai lah ija and juju pon dah bgn untuk pergi kerja)..cerita tuh sgt sgt lah sedih..dah lama dot tak nangis teresak esak cam tuh...then rasa klakar plak..nangis sorang sorang pepagi buta..pening lalat pon ade sebab tak tido lagi..perut pon dah lapa balik since last dinner malam tadik..hahha..the thing is..my sis watched that movie kat wayang..and recommended me to watch it..she said.."best..sedih..i nangis teruk"..to which i reply .."eleh..you mmg..cerita tah hape hape pon you leh nangis..hehehe"..oh boy..i'm sure glad she's not wif me when i watched the same movie pagi tadik..heheheheh..Then moral of the movie is..love doesn't wait for you..life doesn't wait for you for that matter..so..treasure your life..and most definitely treasure your love..so..in treasuring my love: Leman, i betul betul sayang you..betikkk..tak tipu..!!

Attitude..

This was taken from the testimonial of my fren : Amir Hamidi..
I found this interesting..thus..sharing it here..
if A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z is equal to 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 1718 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 then hardwork= H+A+R+D+W+O+R+K = 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98% only knowledge= K+N+O+W+L+E+D+G+E= 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96% only love= L+O+V+E= 12+15+22+5=54% only luck= L+U+C+K = 12+21+3+11 = 47% only (don't most of us think this is most important???) th3n whaT maKes 100% ? s iT m0neY? ..... no eaDersHip? ...... no eVery proBleM haS a s0utioN, ony iF We peRhaps cHangE ouR aTTituDe. t0 gO t0 The toP, To tHaT 100%. wHat we Reay neeD tO Go fuRtheR, a lil'biT moRe....... attitude= A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E = 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100% iT Is ouR aTTituDe toWards iFe anD woRk thaT maKes ouR liFe 100%
Actually i dun even bother cross casting whether all the numbers tie..
Its 1243 am and my brain has gone to the "no-more-thinking-for-the-day" mode..
But cool kan..that thing above..dunno lah where's the real source of that thing..

1 January 2006

Another year has past...and a new year has just begun...
and I AM..still a "cembeng" (note : a word to describe someone who likes to cry..huhuhu..)
I spent my new year's nite watching the re-run of PEARL HARBOUR at Tv3..
I cried when Rafe (Abang Ben) died..and i cried even harder when Danny (Abang Josh) died..
huhuhuhhhhhh... I tot i would be tougher in 2006.. oh boy..i was proved wrong..
the very first day of the new year... hahahhahaa..
The worse part is..citer dah abes pon..dah kuar semua nama nama pelakon..
I continued crying..because..the "There You'll Be" song is so menyedihkan...
hahahahaha,...
Now after a bucket of tears later..here i am typing away on my tilam in my bedroom..
When the clock strike 12 am today (1 January 2005).. i felt...NOTHING!!!
This year i decided not to join any party or celebration..
Feels like im getting too old to join the crowd and the noise and the jam (especially the jam)...
And also thank you to all the never ending stock take...huhuhuh..
my feet hurts doing all those walking around the warehouses..
Tomorrow is another day of attending stock take..
Lucky it will only start at 230..if not tomorrow im gonna look like a mess wif my puffy eyes..
due to lack of sleep and the crying..hehehe...
It's nearly 2 am now.. and I am hungry...
Like usual..i always tend to try to make my resolution come through at the early stage of the new year..
hehehhe..biasa nya masuk february dah lupa dah..
So i started wif the first one on my list... to loss weight..thus..i've been skipping my dinner for a few days alredi..
but the problem is...i am hungryyyyy...my perut dah bunyik bunyik dari tadik...
cepat lah siang so that i can go to McDonald to have my Big Breakfast...
hahahahahhaha...
Camaner lah semua org yg tak suka makan malam tuh leh tahan eh??
I ate fruits..tons of them..manggoes..apples..jambus...tapi kenyang sekejap jek..then my perut dah lapar balik...
cisss...saje jek perut gemok nih nak sabotaj my diet...huhuhu...
My Baby is back..but i haven't seen him yet...
He claimed to still have jet lag..
Cehh..3 jam jek beza.. mengada ngada jek lebey kan...
Today he even slept without kissing me good nite first....
Merajuk terus..hehehe...
Going back to the Pearl Harbour movie... Kate Beckinsale was sure put on 'persimpangan dilema"..
when she has to divide her love for 2 guys..
Personally.. i think 3 month is a bit early to start a new relationship after ending one meaningful one kan..
At least if you at least waited at least 1 year (wow cool..3 at least in 1 sentence)..it's justifiable..But the time of the intervening period is actually judgemental...
Different person might have a different perspective kan..
But if the situation is reversed..wouldn't you like for your love one to grief for a while before resuming his/her own life
(oh my god..does this makes me a selfish b*****??? ahhahahaha... tak kut..)
Its not like you wanna cursed her/him to never love again..its just that you wanna feel cherish..
(although im sure the dead couldn't care less what the living are doing eh??)
I think i better stop now before i ramble on tatau tah hape hape lagik..
Should i succumb to my desire of roti celup nestum campo milo??
or roti celup nescafe? or maggi (mungkin tidak, sebab tak rasa cam nak mkn megi)
Goodnite World..
....Love...Peace and Empathy....